I have a huge challenge ahead of me with all this work I have to do at university now. I want to do well, but its so hard to tailor it to what they want from you.. But at the same time I am strangely relaxed (I sometimes get very stressed). It has to be put in to perspective of life in general - life is a beautiful delicate thing... its difficult to explain. These sorts of things really aren’t the most important in life.. you have to make your own mind up about that, instead of what society tells you. I want to do this degree so I can use my knowledge to help with some pressing issues in the world, but I can only do my best. If I am afraid its because I want something else, the feeling of success etc.
I was reading an article about illusion - about wanting to draw attention to oneself once you get in to power, (or before) and then that detracts focus from any good work you are trying to do. And thinking you are more important or greater than other people is an illusion, and seeing it in yourself is the most difficult thing. What do people think about that?